i've learned the hard way that things do not always turn out the way you want them to. people tell me to be more optimistic. but the more i think "yay my life is finally going the right way!" something else comes and bits me in the butt. for example, i was just getting excited that i may be able to afford my own apartment. and then they turned me down because i do not make enough money. and another example, just yesterday i had a mental breakdown. i was upset about the apartment thing, school going bad, i'm behind on some rent but they wont tell me how much, and im gaining weight, and my computer charger has a short in it so sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.

So anyway, the point of that is that life isn't always fair to me. in fact, it sometimes is so unreasonable that i end up like i did last night. mental breakdown: could not get off the floor i was crying so hard. my sides still hurt from that. Thank goodness my boyfriend came and took me out to a movie and brought me food. I hadnt eaten all day long. :'(

Well this is an interesting blog. I promise they will get more ....happy as i go on about how life was and yup! Sorry for the pessimism. It won't last long hopefully.

-Aimee